On the Road Again

"I'm glad that you found your wheels again."  Out of context that phrase would not mean a heck of a lot to many people.  But hearing that this morning really resonated with me and sums up many of the conversations and feelings that I have had lately.

Taking a year off of cycling to sort myself out was so very necessary and almost felt like a recovery year.  It provided the time and space I needed in order to really go into those dark corners that I had been avoiding and to unpack what I found there.  I feel like without that time I would not have been able to move myself forward to where I am today and would not have been ready to throw a leg over the top tube quite yet.

I feel very fortunate that riding a bike truly is just like riding a bike, and being able (and needing) to ride solo for the first few months this season was a perfect way to dip my toe back into it.  There were a lot of memories and emotions that I needed to pedal through and those solo rides were the perfect place to do so.  As our regulations eased up and I was able to start riding in small groups, I was given a gift.  The gift of reconnection with the incredible people that I have in my circle of friends.  People who despite my disappearance for a few years, never gave up on me and always were thinking of me and there to support me when I reached out again.  For that I will always be so very grateful.  

In the last few weeks I have been reminded time and time again of just how powerful these connections are.  Waking up in the wee hours to ride a bike through sleeping neighbourhoods with a group of like-minded friends has been one of the biggest gifts that I have been given this year.  Having this time to connect, share ideas, concerns and reach out for ideas and input all while being in motion is magic.  Many of us have commented that we will look back on this summer as one that we will never forget, and one that we will cherish. I could not agree more.  

I really do see 2020 as a year that has given many of us a chance to push pause, take stock and really discover who we are.  It has not been an easy year by any means, and this slowing down of our lives has not always come easily or felt comfortable.  Often the hardest decisions and work come with a sense of discomfort, and it is the ability to realize that these moments are temporary and necessary that propels us into new territory.

  

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