Kerri On Down The Road

Last week I did something that felt kind of crazy and yet also exciting.  I responded to an email sent by the music shop where I take my virtual piano lessons.  The email was sent to solicit interested adults who played instruments in high school, specifically those who played flute, clarinet or saxophone, to see if there was interest in joining a Zoom group to pick those instruments back up now.  Now I haven't played flute in about 34 or so years, and my last year of music in school was not a great one - being asked to leave band because I wasn't practicing and basically losing all interest in playing music entirely.  But despite that something about this post really caught my attention.  I no longer own my own instrument so figured that despite my interest, I wasn't about to buy a new flute on a whim and with COVID there were not likely going to be rental options...but I was wrong.  There are a line of instruments that are available that sound great and a...

Full transparency before we begin - Serendipity is one of my all-time favourite movies.  In the movie, John Cusack's character is given a copy of Love in the Time of Cholera and that book plays an important role in the movie.  I decided to read it after watching the movie for the upteenth time and then decided to borrow the idea for my blog title today.  Ok, now that I have that off of my chest.... If you read my previous post ( Knowing When To Push and When To Pull ) you will know that I went for COVID testing and much to my shock I did test positive.  By the time I went for a test and found out my result I had already been sick for 10 days and technically had ended my quarantine requirement.  Fortunately I live on my own when the boys are not here and had kept to myself because I was feeling sick, so despite not knowing that I had COVID my impact on people connected to me was minimal.  When I consider the spiritual and emotional impact that COVID has had...

 Lately I have been feeling like there is a change in energy taking place.  I am noticing it in how I see my next steps laid out in front of me, how I am experiencing the world and my place within it.  What I have also noticed is how this shift in perception has a lot to do with how I am coming into my days. For so many years I feel like my thoughts and actions were shaped by the mantra of "If Only"...that sense of perceived limitations, the feeling of being held back by things out of my control, and the underlying frustration that would manifest as a result.  I would never question where these thoughts came from or what purpose they were serving, it was just the inevitable pattern of thinking that would arrive if I dared to dream beyond the scope of my usual boundaries.  What I am coming to realize now is that this way of thinking has been in place to protect and insulate against vulnerability, to protect against risk.  By never stepping past those tried a...

Some of the loneliest times of my life have been while I was in a relationship.  When despite physical proximity, emotionally and spiritually there was a gap that grew and grew.  Day by day, the distance from myself and others stretched wider and all of this seemed to happen so slowly that I had no idea while in the middle of it.  It is only now that I can look back and see what took place. What strikes me as the ironic about this realization is how in our current state of social and physical distancing, I feel so much more connected with my family, friends, community and myself. For the most part I live on my own.  The boys are here every other week and aside from those times it is just me and my cats.  This is the first time in my life where I have lived by myself, even on a part-time basis and it really doesn't faze me at all.  I don't think about it very much and it is only when someone points it out that I realize that I am solo.  Coming from a pl...