Listen and Trust

This mantra came to me the other morning as I sat quietly at the start of my day.  I was still processing a week where I found out that although I had been a strong candidate for two different roles at work, I had not ended up being the applicant of choice.  Both of these roles were a bit of a stretch for me, and would have provided a great chance to learn and grow and feel like I had really moved forward in my career.  I understood the decisions that were made, and allowed myself to feel the disappointment and frustration that came with these pieces of news.

With time the disappointment lessened a bit and a great conversation with my manager helped me to gain some new perspective on the matter.  I was able to see that although these chances didn’t work out, as a side effect I made new connections and have also really put the message out there that I am ready for a new challenge.  This reframe of the situation did make me feel a bit better as it made me feel like these weren’t wasted efforts, and that perhaps this was the start of me manifesting a bigger change that is yet to come.

So this was the mindset that I found myself in as I sat and just let my breath flow in and out…and suddenly the words listen and trust came to mind.  I allowed that intention to stay with me as I continued to breathe and considered what "listen and trust" might look like for me, going forward.

I realized that this idea of listening and trusting could apply to many aspects of my life, aside from work.  Listening to my body when it is telling me I need to rest, and trusting that by doing so I will come back stronger.  Listening to my heart when there are emotions I need to acknowledge and trusting that there is no emotion that I cannot allow to flow through me.  Listening to my intuition and trusting that my inner wisdom and that of the universe is guiding me and I just need to believe and be open in order to receive and be directed.  

Ultimately this stillness and these thoughts brought peace, and if nothing else came from these experiences this week, having this new mantra to sit with was worth the ups and downs.



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