What Are You Choosing to Amplify?

I asked myself this very question lot long ago, after noticing a recurring pattern.  I found that I was turning down the volume on achievements or positive accomplishments, wrapping them in an invisibility cloak and setting them aside.  In sharp contrast was my approach towards events that hadn't gone quite as planned or outcomes that fell shy of my hopes - the volume and spotlight on those were turned up to eleven for all to see and notice.  

Why was I doing this - STILL?  Hadn't I been doing the work and speaking about being kind and giving ourselves grace?  How is it that despite all of the knowledge and belief I have in those principles, I was defaulting to old patterns and ways of being?  The most simple answer I have come up with is that I am human and prone to falling back into comfortable patterns, even when their outcome is uncomfortable.

Instead of beating myself up any further, I decided to feel happy that I had noticed and caught this potential downward spiral before it gathered too much steam, and was able to slow it down and examine it.  That in itself is a win - in my eyes, being able to see the behaviour and then do something to course correct is a huge win, no matter what the perfectionist side of your brain may tell you.  So back to the question that we started with - what are you choosing to amplify, and why?

Take a moment to think back to the past few days, weeks or months and replay some of the internal dialogues that may have been taking place around goals or events that you have been involved with.  How have those conversations sounded?  I hope that they have been positive and have provided you with momentum around what you have been working towards.  If you find that you have not had that experience, take a moment to reflect on the messages that you have been hearing.  Are they new or are they remixed versions of old criticisms that seem to creep back from time to time?  How have they made you feel?  Have they impacted your energy or drive to move forward with your dreams?

When I took some time to examine my internal dialogue I realized that I have been deeply discounting my wins, sort of shrugging them off as things that should just be taking place instead of celebrating them as the wins that they are.  There is part of me who feels like doing anything else is borderline bragging and to off-set that, I tend towards downplaying and discounting my hard work.  While I would never think poorly of anyone I care about celebrating a win, I seem to have trouble acknowledging my own.  

At the end of the day, I think that it all boils down to the bigger act of self-love.  Being able to extend to ourselves the very same loving kindness that we would (and likely do) provide for others.  How are you feeling about your frequency?  Could you find a way to turn up the volume on the incredible light and love that you bring to the world?  If it feels hard to extend this kindness to yourself, consider the ripple effect that the positive energy created by this act of love has on the world as we raise the vibration one soul at a time.

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