Kerri On Down The Road

I have been feeling lately like I need to say out loud that despite my blogging, introspective Instagram posts, journalling, reading, mediating and listening to podcasts I AM STILL SUCH A WORK IN PROGRESS!!! When I realize this I feel many things.  Frustration at not being "there" yet, where ever THAT is.  Relief at being able to admit it out loud and to let it sink in, to wonder at where life and the universe is going to guide me to next. And I feel joy at being able to share these thoughts, feelings and experiences with the incredible people who I am grateful to have in my life. I do believe that it is in moments like these, moments of doubt, uncertainty and perceived weakness that we gain the most strength. It takes strength and resilience to face down that inner voice of self doubt and reprimand.  And all of the questions that come with it. I wanted to share this with you as I feel like so often we read inspirational messages and automatically assume that the write...

How often have you considered trying something new, making a change in your life, adding a new skill to your toolkit, and then decided that you will do that, when the time is right, when you are ready? Problem is, when are we really ever ready to try something new, to take on a challenge, make a change, pivot?  How do we know when the right time is to start?  Do we ever know in the moment, or just when we look back and see missed opportunities? What would need to happen to make us feel more ready tomorrow than we are today, right now?  It would make sense that by considering a change, we are already part way there....so what will it take to be ready to push that snowball over the hill and let it go?  And if we did receive some type of sign, would we even believe that it was THE sign that we needed or that it really was now or never? I was listening to a podcast that brought up this very point, and a fact that we don't often want to ponder.  The fact that we ...

I feel like this year's marathon has been a very defining moment for me.  It was a journey for me to get to the starting line and then of course the actual marathon itself is always a journey.  But I feel like I have done almost as much work after the fact as I did leading into it.  Just on a different plane. When I started to prepare I really was set on just doing it, being able to run it again and not being too fussed on time and comparisons.  I was even at one point going to run out west, until a change of plans caused me to do the run in Toronto instead.  Being on familiar ground, on a course I know well and on roads that I ran through my training was helpful but also set the stage for comparisons to creep in.  Adding onto that a feeling of strength that came as my training progressed, suddenly the "Kerri Monster" kicked in and started to put new and unrealistic expectations on the day.  I would say that I regret that, but I don't.  Because ...

"Sometimes you fall down, because there is something down there that you are supposed to find." When I read that quote on LinkedIn this morning, it really resonated with me for a few reasons. I like the idea of finding positives in times when we may focus solely on the negative or set back that is immediately in front of us.  I also like the idea of there always being lessons to learn, and things to discover no matter where we are in our lives or what we have put in front of us. I can think of so many times when I have fallen, both literally and figuratively, and if I reflect on the outcomes of those times, I can see that there absolutely were take-aways to be had from the experience. In the physical and literal sense, I have had my fair share of trips, slips and injuries over the years, and what led to a majority of those happening was pretty simple.  Not being present.  Either present in the immediate situation - head in one place and feet in another - or pres...