Kerri On Down The Road

 Thinking back to this time last year as we were ready to usher in 2020 and all the hopes and expectations that came with a year with such an iconic number attached to it.  20/20 vision - clarity, hindsight and looking ahead.  Then 2020 arrived and for the first couple of months seemed like it was going to be okay...until it was not.  And I'm sure that I do not need to go into deep details around what this year has been like for the most of us.  Suffice it to say that it will likely go down in most people's books as a year like no other.   So while it is hard to look at the past year with any sort of bittersweet nostalgia, I can't help but consider all of the unexpected things that took place that weren't necessarily negative.  This is not in any way meant to diminish the real struggles that so many people have faced and still are facing, and likely will continue to face well into the coming year.  What I can't help but see is that despite th...

 Not only is this the title of one of my all-time favourite movies, it also sums up what I have been feeling lately on a bunch of levels for the people, places and things of importance in my life. I have been thinking a lot about love lately, and the past experiences I have had with it.  When I think back on many of the important relationships that I have had, I realize that what I thought was love was really power being hidden under the disguise of "love".  Sadly I can see now how admitting love was almost like an admission of weakness, and by declaring my love I was putting myself in a place of vulnerability that didn't always feel safe. Handing over power to someone else who could then use it against me or could make me feel inadequate or small.  So I would either hold back on sharing my feelings or feel uncomfortable and exposed while also being in a state of "love".   The other experience of "love" that I reflected on was where love was an expecta...

 With the winter upon us, my cycling has moved indoors and I feel fortunate to have snagged an electronic bike trainer to help develop and maintain fitness I gained over the summer.  I have often rejected the idea of riding indoors through the winter for fear of burning myself out, but with gyms being closed and no spin classes in sight, it seemed like a no-brainer this year. What I have found, much to my surprise, is that I am really enjoying these training sessions.  Instead of feeling like work and a necessary evil of staying fit, they challenge and inspire me.  They remind me of the incredible summer of riding that took place this year and have me looking forward to the coming season in 2021.   The premise of the riding that I'm doing is "Base Training" - literally working on developing and maintaining a strong base of fitness that I can then work on increasing and growing over time.  The sessions are preset, so I just have to show up and ride, and...

 I am not a car person.  I feel that I need to be completely transparent about that fact before I relate an experience from this past week, which ended up inspiring this post. You see, I own a car but honestly wish I did not need to as I often feel like the convenience is off-set by costs and upkeep.  I have never been a person who put much thought into the kind of vehicles others owned, meaning that just because you drive a XXX car doesn't mean that I hold you in higher regard than someone driving a xxx car.  I feel much differently about my motorcycle which I do love and would happily spend money on because it brings me joy to ride it.  My car feels like more of a workhorse and gets me where I need to be, while my motorcycle gets me places that I want to be.  I digress... Getting into my car to pick up groceries last week I noticed my battery light was on.  Seemed strange as I had never noticed that happening before and I was sure that I had replaced...