Kerri On Down The Road

For as long as I can remember, I have been fascinated by astrology.  I would always read my horoscope in the newspaper or magazines, and often found myself including horoscope scrolls as an impulse purchase at the drug store instead of chocolate bars or gum.  As I have grown older, I have become acutely aware of the moon cycles and how their energy plays upon my own.  This past weekend was no different. We were treated to a beautiful full moon on Saturday night, marking the final phase of the astrological calendar for 2023.  It was a full moon in Virgo, so I felt even more drawn to the energy being transmitted as I myself am a Virgo.  Listening to details on the significance of this event, I was intrigued by the statement that this full moon was all about digestion - taking in what is necessary to nourish us, and allowing that which doesn't serve us to be set aside.  What stood out to me as I mulled this idea over was how much importance I place on physical...

 How often have we been advised or reminded that our happiness relies upon our ability to let go of what is holding us back; old stories we tell ourselves, habits not serving our well-being, inaccurate beliefs, and sometimes relationships that have run their course?  Some of these are easier to release than others, as we can see the benefit of walking away and starting fresh.  And some are harder because admitting we need to move on can feel like admitting we were wrong.  I am standing in the space of this conundrum as I sit down to type.  After wrestling with some tough decisions about my future, I have come to a place of realizing the only way forward is to set down some of the heavy load I have been carrying for the past year or more.  Although I cannot deny the sense of relief that comes with this realization, it is accompanied by discomfort about changing my mind.  There is part of me that has grown comfortable with the plotline I have been repeat...

Looking back over my life, I can't help but notice how much time and energy I have spent attempting to make myself smaller.  The pursuit of taking up less space, both physically and energetically, has been something I have preoccupied myself with on and off over the years to many different outcomes.   Either through the pursuit of relentless activity and strict eating protocols, always with one eye on the mirror or the readout of a scale, or through holding my thoughts and feelings in, never feeling like I could fully exhale and allow them space to breathe and grow.   Interestingly enough, despite both paths being destructive in their own ways, each found praise in one form or another which ultimately fuelled the unrelenting desire to meet some unrealistic goal of fitting a desired image or outcome. Thankfully, these restrictive and constrictive tendencies have slowly but surely eased over the years.  Perhaps giving way to a newfound understanding and accep...

As I typed that very long title out, I couldn't help but smile as I knew that the Universe was also having a laugh.  You see, I am a planner by nature, it is bred into my bones and is the strength that I lean on to help me navigate life.  I love the feeling of having a plan in place, something that makes sense regardless of how out of order life can often be. It also provides me with the false sense of having control over what is taking place, despite knowing deep down that is absolutely not the case.  Over the past few months, I have been nudging up against some choices and decisions that have required me to let go of preconceived ideas and notions of what my direction forward might look like.  This has meant a slow and steady dismantling of some long-held ideas and visions of my future and although at times it has felt liberating to reimagine the next few years, letting go of the safety net of my plans has been tough.  What has been even harder is to not attem...